men (suckas)

I was listening to the song "No pain No gain" last night, and at first I liked what the song was about, until just now. After arguing with my boyfriend of 11 years, for like the umpteenth time. I am so sick and tired of him trying to change who I am...don't get me wrong he's a good guy and I know he means well but he doesn't understand how to come at a woman!!! I think he envies the fact that I can be so carefree about things, and less times pessimistic. He is a very negative person, he wakes up thinking about what will go wrong that day, or wait for something not to go his way. You can imagine what our day begins with........maybe an arguement after he gets his morning nut! Most days are like that but not all, he points out all the things I've done wrong. Like if I was to leave the car windows cracked over night, he'd come in the house after rolling them back up and say: "P, YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR CAR?" and so it begins. I look at it like "hey, no one stole the car it's cool get over it!" He sees it like, "it's happened more than once and one day it will get stolen, so stop being careless!!!!!" It just feels like I eff up more times than what he expects. I wish he was more exepting of me than not...it feels like I live with my parents sometimes...uuuggghhh. I have overlooked a lot of things about him, God knows.